I Said I Must Write

So I said I must write and I didn't care about what. 

My Granny died 4 weeks ago and we were asked to write a tribute for the publication to be served on the day of her burial in May. The deadline for submission was last Thursday. I had thought I wasn't going to be able to write anything since I haven't had any inspiration to write this year. Not that I have not had any interesting experiences to be shared, but I was just waiting for the first line to drop on my lap before I would pick up my notepad to type 'cause that's what I'm used to.

But I've waited and you've waited. I still see the numbers coming to my blog every week to check and it hurts me. It hurts me that I don't have something for you, that you are disappointed again and again, that the numbers are dropping, that soon Radiant would be history. It hurt me.

Then the deadline for submission was approaching. How would I justify not writing a tribute for my Grand mom? Don't I miss her? And if I were to write a thing at all, it would really be disappointing to just say, "Rest in peace Grandma. I miss you." I already overhead them say, "Chidiogo will write us a poem", meaning that they are expecting from me, not just a tribute, but something creative as the writer that I am.

Well, this is the end of the story. On the eve of the d-day, I picked up my notepad, blank screen in front of me, blank mind inside of me, I didn't care. I had to write something. Anything.

"'Grandma', we called her..." and the words flowed like water from an unblocked tap. The next day I put finishing touches, sent to my editor to see if it made sense and he said, "it's beautiful". Really? I've had the secret all along but did nothing with it. It is called a writer's block, but the cure for it is for the writer to write. How ironic! 

So I said I must write today and here we are. I am excited that you'll be glad to see a "new post from me" and  you'll be happy to "read me", as some of you have requested in private messages. Shout out to y'all who don't let me drown in that block, who give me a reason to fight to write again. Your direct messages and even just the fact that you still visit this blog when there is nothing new here helps me keep hope alive.

Therefore, I'll write again. I'll write again but this time not for me. I've served myself all this while and maybe that's the lesson I needed to learn from this break. Life is not just about me. It's about you too. I want to serve you this time. I'll pick up my pad even when I don't feel like. I'll make the time even when I'm choked up my sleeves. So tell me, what would you want to read from me?

Let me know in the comment section below.

 

Radiant ~ March 2018

14 comments

  • Nedu

    Nedu London

    Write about your advantage and disadvantages of living in Uk as compare to Nigeria

    Write about your advantage and disadvantages of living in Uk as compare to Nigeria

  • Olisa

    Olisa Enugu

    Your everyday life

    Your everyday life

  • Chioma

    Chioma Enugu

    Write about the experiences and values you learn from life everyday. Meanwhile thank God you got over the block.

    Write about the experiences and values you learn from life everyday. Meanwhile thank God you got over the block.

  • Amara

    Amara Lagos

    Beautiful!!....

    Beautiful!!....

  • Radiant

    Radiant UK

    @Nedu, I’ve shared some of my experiences since being here - school tales, London tales, I talked about bad habits of housemates and all. I sure will continue to write those but not necessarily as a comparison to life in Nigeria. Each side has its good and bad.

    @Nedu, I’ve shared some of my experiences since being here - school tales, London tales, I talked about bad habits of housemates and all. I sure will continue to write those but not necessarily as a comparison to life in Nigeria. Each side has its good and bad.

  • Radiant

    Radiant UK

    @Olisa, it can be quite a bore to read the nitty gritty of my everyday life. I’ll pick some interesting parts, and like Chioma said, values and lessons learnt. Are there any specific topics you guys would want me to cover?

    @Olisa, it can be quite a bore to read the nitty gritty of my everyday life. I’ll pick some interesting parts, and like Chioma said, values and lessons learnt. Are there any specific topics you guys would want me to cover?

  • R

    R Notts

    A philosophical piece

    A philosophical piece

  • M

    M

    How about life after your masters?

    How about life after your masters?

  • DrCeeKay

    DrCeeKay Ilford

    Write about ‘ogbanje’ London weather; Making new friends and how you have maintained contact with the old ones you left in Nigeria; Life of a doctor in the UK compared to Nigeria using your personal experiences; Things you miss about Naija. I was also expecting your blog on Black Panther ! Lol...

    Write about ‘ogbanje’ London weather; Making new friends and how you have maintained contact with the old ones you left in Nigeria; Life of a doctor in the UK compared to Nigeria using your personal experiences; Things you miss about Naija.
    I was also expecting your blog on Black Panther ! Lol...

  • Queen Nwosu

    Queen Nwosu

    Awwwwwwnnnn! Now that's a beautiful piece. You're such delight to read. Welcome back...

    Awwwwwwnnnn! Now that's a beautiful piece. You're such delight to read. Welcome back...

  • Nneka

    Nneka Lagos

    Nne when are you also going to write my own story based on our friendship, experience and the things you know about me? Because you must certainly write as a writer that you are.. Meanwhile that was a beautiful write up you got.. Weldone..

    Nne when are you also going to write my own story based on our friendship, experience and the things you know about me? Because you must certainly write as a writer that you are.. Meanwhile that was a beautiful write up you got.. Weldone..

  • Nneka Evan Elodi

    Nneka Evan Elodi Lagos

    Nne when are you also going to write my own story based on our friendship, experience and the things you know about me? Because you must certainly write as a writer that you are.. Meanwhile that was a beautiful write up you got.. Weldone..

    Nne when are you also going to write my own story based on our friendship, experience and the things you know about me? Because you must certainly write as a writer that you are.. Meanwhile that was a beautiful write up you got.. Weldone..

  • Radiant

    Radiant England

    @Evan, awwww dearest. Our love knows no bounds.

    @Evan, awwww dearest. Our love knows no bounds.

  • Charlie

    Charlie

    I love this, please help us continue on your series on Chiking..write about Chiking 6.5, how to approach a chubby independent Lady or any other related topics. Thank you

    I love this, please help us continue on your series on Chiking..write about Chiking 6.5, how to approach a chubby independent Lady or any other related topics. Thank you

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